Notepad Love...*grin* 

Notepad Love...*grin*

Here it is 12:28am and I am typing in Notepad an update I prolly won't post till after one. I talked to Tai today about what I figured out, I think it went well but man is he indecisive. Gee wonder who that puts me in mind of...maybe me?! LOL, anywayy; we talked a bit about it and I guess I'll be changing a bit for him. You know, not be so...umm...open...I guess that's a good way to put it. I just wished he knew how much it pains me to see him hiding something so stupid from people but I also know it's for the best...what with school and all.

You know somehow I am reminded of something Ben Franklin once said in Poor Richard's Almanac, "Three may keep a secret, if two of them are dead". I guess that's too true in my life...but something as trivial as what I have to keep a secret...like who I love...I don't think I should have to hide that fact. Although for his sake, I will...

I also asked him a few questions, regarding why did he ask me that night five months ago and to this very moment, as I type this...he still cannot answer. That tells me one thing, he took a chance...he succeeded...he's taken more chances with me than he can ever comprehend...always succeeded. I wish he could see what I see sometimes...other times, I am glad he doesn't see what I see...because if he did...he'd be more of my most hated enemy than my most loved lil hedgehog...

I wish I knew why I answered yes that night...I mean I've always loved him this is true but why did I say yes? I too took a chance...without knowing reason...love I guess is a perfect reason...especially when it brought him into my life...I hope it is the same for him as it was...no...is...same for him as it is myself.

I once told him something that I meant word for word once...I love you more each day, meaning today I love him more than yesterday and less than tomorrow...