People who "care" 

People who "care"

Today I just got my real first glimpse into two people that I care about very much. One being Tai and the other, Ken. Now as far as Tai goes, I know he's scared that people will find out and stuff like that but I think he needs to know that it's okay. I mean Ken knows and has no problem with it yet Tai seems to have the problem with the relationship. If he loves me like he says then why don't he say it or show it without regard of who's in the room. I mean honestly I wouldn't mind being told I love you or being kissed with people around, it would only serve to strengthen our love.

As for Ken...oh boy am I pissed at him right now. I mean I don't know what's going on with him but I am getting the cold shoulder any more. Especially from Tai when Ken's around which is making me paranoid more than ever. To top it off yesterday I know Tai knew something was wrong but he didn't bother to get ask me...was it that Ken and people were there? I don't know...but if it was does that not show how little I must truly mean to him?

Tai and Ken...I love them both and care deeply for them both especially Tai but unless things change and they stop telling me it's in my head...I ain't going to be around for it.